ups and downs, going in circles

Two-thirds of the way through May, and I’m still trying to get caught up from our crazy April. I think I’m almost there. I once again believe that I can find balance. The big question is then, “How do I quickly regain balance, even when an event or serious of events throws me off balance?” This has been an issue for me for, well, decades, I think. While I’m sure I’m by no means alone, I still struggle with it.

I go in circles. I get to a good place, something happens, and I am back around to the start again. I need to make changes that actually have impact and can be maintained. Moving to the condo has had its impact and is a change that can be maintained. Unfortunately, at the moment I think it might be bringing me more headache than joy.

I’m thus going to keep this in mind as I start back up on my two “projects”: Project 41 and my Happiness Project.

Why two projects? I know that I will be much happier if I am lighter and in better shape. I’ll have more energy; I’ll be able to participate more. However, I don’t want to put off for another second anything else because of that. So while it is almost impossible to maintain balance while pursuing two additional projects, I’m going to have to find a way to manage. First up, I’ll be rethinking the missions of these two projects so that they are distinct and don’t overlap.

I’ll be thinking about it more, but I’m going to change my Project 41 goals to be mostly about getting in better shape, having more energy and feeling better about myself. While all these could easily be called goals to make me “happier”, I see them as being simply the base I must maintain in order to pursue the broader Happiness Project further.

farmer's market flowers - 16 may 2012