thought it would get easier

When I decided to participate NaBloPoMo this month, I had great hopes for my blog. I decided that like with many other things, if I made myself sit down and add something to my little blog everyday that with practice it would get easier. Unfortunately, I don’t seem to have hit my stride yet. And every day, I sit here, feeling like it ought not be so hard. Surely I must have *something* to say. And day after day goes by that I don’t get anything written. That in turn leads me to a never-ending feeling of being behind. For instance, while I’m dating this post as Monday the 19th, it is actually Thanksgiving morning. Which means that in order to feel “caught up” and be able to “relax”, I have three more blog posts to write today. Why do I do this to myself? Will I eventually have more to say and become a slightly better writer if I continue to push myself to write something every day? Or will I just go on making myself feel guilty and permanently “behind”? Sigh.

working - 19 nov 2012