Time to Breathe

Today I finally realized – I now have time to breathe. For years, I felt like I had not a single moment in which to do something for myself or even breathe. The few times I did take time to do something for me, I felt guilty and nervous about the growth of the backlog.

But today? I finished work in the early afternoon. I flew through today’s list of to-do items. And then by 3pm, I was at a loss. What do I do now? For the past few years, I have rarely had this feeling of being “done”. Between the downsize move to a walkable place, Chloe going to school, our reduction in travel (due to school requirements) and my January Happiness Project which helped me to clear out my to-do list, I’m finding that I can not only get everything done each day for a change, but that I can even get it done early enough to leave me time to not worry about every wasted second….a very bizarre feeling for me.

Now, what to do with those free seconds? I’m trying to not fill them with ridiculousness, like reading blog comments that simply annoy me. I have ideas of projects…. Learn iPhone programming? Improve my WordPress skills? Take a photography class? Return to my true love and study combinatorics again? Get crafty/gourmet around the house? Volunteer and get out and about in our new city? Finally get going on my French and/or guitar aspirations? Lots of ideas are floating in my head. A world of opportunity waiting, and I hope to figure out which of these (or something else) to pursue…

pens - 9 feb 2012

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