finding time.

pens – 2 jan 2016

How do I find the time? Whenever I see the suggestion “Just get up thirty minutes earlier!” I want to scream. I’m often up at 4:30 or 5am, unable to sleep because I know how very much I need to get done in a day and don’t know how it will all get done even when I do get up at 5am or earlier. What can I do in order to do everything I want to do? Or is it silly to think that I can do EVERYTHING I want to do and I’m being ridiculousl hard on myself?

What can I eliminate? What can I be more efficient in doing? How can I reduce extra trips? I’m constantly trying to figure out where I can come up with more minutes every day. I want to do so many different things! I’ve tried to simplify and organize our lives so that I can have more time. But I quickly fill up my found time with — things I wanted to have time to do.

Perhaps it is a cycle. As some things become more important, I find the time for them. I just do wish I could feel as though I had some down time where I wasn’t worrying about all that wasn’t getting done.